 day 7 research
18.10.2023 today research in the armchair ideas and realisations in the morning in a half sleepy / dreamy - half awake state composting is somatic triangulation:
Today clear realisation about the theory and psychological theory and background for PME as a body-psychotherapy: Basis: Co-regulation through a caregiver providing love & safety and basic needs and supporting resources by listening & communicating dysregulation / misalignment / trauma through:
this leads to survival patterns of action & functioning longing/striving for or rejecting on mental level: basic patterns of fear / basic patterns of love on social level: patterns of relationship physical level nerves & hormones & all other tissues on cellular level PME can help
alignment of body and mind through somatic push combining:
found a pedagogy for somatic push:
I did somatic research with somatic push: What did I experience:
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 11.10.2023
reflexive data creation reflection on somatic exploration during teaching the intensive “healing dance & somatic touch” somatic exploration about the cell on the floor exploring the gravitational characteristics and skills and abilities and potentials of the cell starting laying on the belly sensing the pull of gravity sensing the push of the resisting floor > push versus pull is the essence of movement and movement development and human development and Physio-Mental Development and healing dance asking the cells with the push / pull play is allowing the cell to self-regulate as an answer inner self regulation of the cell was experienced / imagined as “unfolding of the DNA” = resolving of the transgenerational epigenetic entanglement question: what about the cyto - skeleton?? the exploration was rather emotional and relieving for me ( the students were more or less lost ) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ realisations - reflexive data creation The movement of the cell is fluid > feeling of flow The experienced mind of cellular movement is “being essential” Cellular = the ultimate experiencal self Cellular = the unconscious Cellular = where chemical and electrical meet, where nerves and hormones meet Cellular = the door to the transpersonal / spiritual / being connected to everything the ultimative title / research focus : Does PME make me happy? what would be the bottom up research focus? what would be the idiolektik question? instead of the top down approach that I was using till now.   29.09.2023 day 2 research Where are you and how is it there? the experience of yesterday was deep and is still in me especially in the zones between waking and sleeping it is a little bit an unfocused place, content, a little vulnerable, quiet. let's go into recording one: interestingly I was much less concentrated on my self and my body today having the mind more free through just listening and not talking had the opposite effect than expected: my mind was wandering off to organisational questions of the study: I was mostly thinking of the presentation and technical issues of presenting via zoom so lets do it again: How are you, what did you experience?: I Could concentrate a little better on my body and I can feel a full body alignment change now and continuing Contacting my tmj was emotionally very hot, I had to hyperventilate. my thoughts were also clarifying and I could take a more reflective view on my thoughts: there were again on zoom presentation, and I realised that I actually did a 10 weeks training On webinars and that I have also a lot of trial and error experience in online teaching. I tried to validate that for myself, but I also saw the strong need in myself that my knowledge is also validated from the outside And I could feel my anger about MAPP not having this knowledge and not validating my knowledge. This could have been an AOL RPL-claim But I should show and communicate my knowledge to my future business contacts. Cellular Breathing and gravitation exploration: It was easier than expected to focus Through a mistake yesterday there was no music on the recording But actually that made it easier to focus But still it was not as deep as yesterday, when I did the recording So talking and self-teaching does something to my mind and Enables a deeper process - i need to reflect on that more A new discovery this time was, that I came into developmental movement patterns Once I allowed myself to move on the floor. So this cellular breathing and gravitating is the base of all movement Base of all movement development Base of all development The alignment and integrity of my skull reacted positively This has to do with my tendency of ear infections How are you now?: I feel more content and self-assured Is this more self-esteem? One of the basic mental needs?   29.09.2023
day 2 research Where are you and how is it there? the experience of yesterday was deep and is still in me especially in the zones between waking and sleeping it is a little bit an unfocused place, content, a little vulnerable, quiet. let's go into recording one: interestingly I was much less concentrated on my self and my body today having the mind more free through just listening and not talking had the opposite effect than expected: my mind was wandering off to organisational questions of the study: I was mostly thinking of the presentation and technical issues of presenting via zoom so lets do it again: How are you, what did you experience?: I Could concentrate a little better on my body and I can feel a full body alignment change now and continuing Contacting my tmj was emotionally very hot, I had to hyperventilate. my thoughts were also clarifying and I could take a more reflective view on my thoughts: there were again on zoom presentation, and I realised that I actually did a 10 weeks training On webinars and that I have also a lot of trial and error experience in online teaching. I tried to validate that for myself, but I also saw the strong need in myself that my knowledge is also validated from the outside And I could feel my anger about MAPP not having this knowledge and not validating my knowledge. This could have been an AOL RPL-claim But I should show and communicate my knowledge to my future business contacts. Cellular Breathing and gravitation exploration: It was easier than expected to focus Through a mistake yesterday there was no music on the recording But actually that made it easier to focus But still it was not as deep as yesterday, when I did the recording So talking and self-teaching does something to my mind and Enables a deeper process - i need to reflect on that more A new discovery this time was, that I came into developmental movement patterns Once I allowed myself to move on the floor. So this cellular breathing and gravitating is the base of all movement Base of all movement development Base of all development The alignment and integrity of my skull reacted positively This has to do with my tendency of ear infections How are you now?: I feel more content and self-assured Is this more self-esteem? One of the basic mental needs?  28.09.2023 day 1 building my space safe space space is now in my house our house view through the window over the hills to my left to my left is important my left side is weak, sick, angry and small lets take the left side as theme for my self-coaching 432 Hertz Music on my left side now 432 hearts for my left side recording the audio of 3 times somatic self-coaching what did I experience?: getting deeper with each round starting with the obvious: my left ear with its constant inflammation the effects were not as profound as I hoped for second place was right hip joint and right iliosacral joint also obvious choice with some but not a lot good effects 3rd place was the most interesting: my neck I did not dare to include my jaw and mouth the cognitive reason was that I still wanted to talk for the recording but there were hidden emotions that I also was afraid of very old sadness connected to holding back crying behind my eyes so my neck: I was surprised about all the inside noises first they disappeared in the process I feel moved and spaced out now during the process my mind tried to escape by defining and planning the next technical steps: where to put this recording, to make the research journal a public blog…. So I am happy to do this very on my own, but I want to be seen in my individual , emotional development reflection: I need to be heard and seen in communicating my emotions is the basic need for a big co-regulator a big co-regulator would support my self-regulation that is why sharing individual experiences is so important: coach, therapist, peer-group, social media, art, academic writing break, snack, technical management…. recording of cellular breathing & gravitating: what did I experience? I did enjoy myself I have a lot experience in sensing+moving+talking+directing myself I was wondering if I can use that + recording for other income than just teaching live the image of the DNA unfolding itself through this process of sensing, moving, breathing and gravitating unfolding the epigenetic holding points development is unfolding, unfolding is development entwicklung der verwicklung I have the Idea that DNA unfolding and new growth from oxygen and sugar can be a starting point for healing transgenerational trauma transgenerational trauma being a specific “verwicklung” folding of the DNA a learning of our cells from our caregivers co-regulation from caregivers, social surrounding vs co-regulation from gravity & breathing, earth & air how are you now? calm and emotional flatter eyes are in a more restful position, no crying no crying, more fighting for myself!!! 
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