day 2

29.09.2023
day 2 research

Where are you and how is it there?

the experience of yesterday was deep and is still in me
especially in the zones between waking and sleeping

it is a little bit an unfocused place, content, a little vulnerable, quiet.

let's go into recording one:

interestingly I was much less concentrated on my self and my body today

having the mind more free through just listening and not talking
had the opposite effect than expected:
my mind was wandering off to organisational questions of the study:
I was mostly thinking of the presentation and technical issues of presenting via zoom

so lets do it again:

How are you, what did you experience?:

I Could concentrate a little better on my body
and I can feel a full body alignment change now and continuing

Contacting my tmj was emotionally very hot, I had to hyperventilate.

my thoughts were also clarifying and I could take a more reflective view on my thoughts:
there were again on zoom presentation, and I realised that I actually did a 10 weeks training
On webinars and that I have also a lot of trial and error experience in online teaching.

I tried to validate that for myself, 
but I also saw the strong need in myself that my knowledge is also validated from the outside
And I could feel my anger about MAPP not having this knowledge and not validating my knowledge.
This could have been an AOL RPL-claim

But I should show and communicate my knowledge to my future business contacts.

Cellular Breathing and gravitation exploration:

It was easier than expected to focus
Through a mistake yesterday there was no music on the recording
But actually that made it easier to focus

But still it was not as deep as yesterday, when I did the recording
So talking and self-teaching does something to my mind and 
Enables a deeper process - i need to reflect on that more
A new discovery this time was, that I came into developmental movement patterns
Once I allowed myself to move on the floor.
So this cellular breathing and gravitating is the base of all movement
Base of all movement development
Base of all development

The alignment and integrity of my skull reacted positively
This has to do with my tendency of ear infections

How are you now?:
I feel more content and self-assured
Is this more self-esteem? One of the basic mental needs?