day 1

28.09.2023
day 1


building my space
safe space
space is now in my house
our house

view through the window over the hills to my left
to my left is important
my left side is weak, sick, angry and small

lets take the left side as theme for my self-coaching

432 Hertz Music on my left side now
432 hearts for my left side

recording the audio of 3 times somatic self-coaching

what did I experience?:
getting deeper with each round
starting with the obvious: my left ear with its constant inflammation
the effects were not as profound as I hoped for

second place was right hip joint and right iliosacral joint
also obvious choice with some but not a lot good effects

3rd place was the most interesting:
my neck
I did not dare to include my jaw and mouth
the cognitive reason was that I still wanted to talk for the recording
but there were hidden emotions that I also was afraid of
very old sadness
connected to holding back crying behind my eyes

so my neck:
I was surprised about all the inside noises first
they disappeared in the process

I feel moved and spaced out now
during the process my mind tried to escape
by defining and planning the next technical steps:
where to put this recording, to make the research journal a public blog….

So I am happy to do this very on my own,
but I want to be seen in my individual , emotional development

reflection:
I need to be heard and seen in communicating my emotions
is the basic need for a big co-regulator
a big co-regulator would support my self-regulation
that is why sharing individual experiences is so important:
coach, therapist, peer-group, social media, art, academic writing

break, snack, technical management….

recording of cellular breathing & gravitating:

what did I experience?

I did enjoy myself
I have a lot experience in sensing+moving+talking+directing myself
I was wondering if I can use that + recording for other income than just teaching live

the image of the DNA unfolding itself 
through this process of sensing, moving, breathing and gravitating
unfolding the epigenetic holding points
development is unfolding, unfolding is development
entwicklung der verwicklung

I have the Idea that DNA unfolding and new growth from oxygen and sugar
can be a starting point  for healing transgenerational trauma
transgenerational trauma being a specific “verwicklung” folding of the DNA
a learning of our cells from our caregivers

co-regulation from caregivers, social surrounding
vs co-regulation from gravity & breathing, earth & air

how are you now?
calm and emotional flatter
eyes are in a more restful position, no crying
no crying, more fighting for myself!!!